addiction, boredom, escapism

I was going to update this often. Once a day, three times a week maybe.

That obviously didn't work out for me.

I never follow through with things the way I want to. I'll go strong for a few weeks, a month, and then... *wham* Flat on my face. It's the way I am, the way I do things. Addiction followed by boredom.

The current addiction is a baseball video game. MVP 2o05 for Playstation2. Good shit. I'm gonna take my Tigers to the World Series baby. Ya know, if I keep playing it...

But it's all escapism really. Anything to get away from the hell that I call my "job". It keeps getting worse. I'll spare the details, but somehow the boss has found a way to treat his employees even more like 7 year olds than before. It's getting to be not worth the mental anguish to even go. How many times have I been within a slight push of just walking out? Too numerous to count; and the number grows exponentially with every week. If not for my lack of ambition I probably would have another job by now. But alas, I can never find the motivation to really look. I'll be playing baseball if you need me.

Speaking of baseball, I'm having a fantasy baseball league online with some friends. Email me if you want the info.

Oh, let's see... I got a couple of new CD's last week. The Breeders Last Splash was a good find for $7, but I need to give a good listen. Lush Ciao! Best of is magnificent - ethereal pop as it's finest. But Chapterhouse Rownderbowt is what I am most proud of. The song "Mesmerize" caught me in it's web a few months ago, but the band's work as a whole has me entranced now. I highly recommend giving them a listen if you get a chance.